I really cant stand my dad?

i had a cat that i loved soo much. she wasnt even two yet. and my dad killed her. she sprayed the couch when she was in heat and he got mad so.... u know.. and that was the worst thing he did. im gonna call aspca or something on him as soon as i can so dont worry about that but.. i just hate everything he does and im stuck living with him and my mom and brother for a while. he wont do anything to reeally hurt anyone like wat he did to my cat because i thinks he loves us.. he just says the most horrrible things! like how he wishes he would have aborted me, my sister and brother b4 we were born (which i dont see as love. he just says he loved us) hes told my NINE yr old brother how much he wants to have with selena gomez, and he told us to do drugs and get drunk our whole lives and just so much more stuff. hes an alcoholic too. lately hes done nothing. but he told me i should apologize to him for my cat spraying the couch (we were gonna give her up bc of that btw), that im mentally insane and should get therapy, he always cusses at me, and thinks i should still love him, and yells all the freakin time because i dont love him. livin in this, and hearing stuff like it idk its like im starting to believe i should apologize sometimes.. and i hate that feeling.. what should i do?? i have to live with him for just a few more yrs cause im 14 so i cant call the aspca just yet. i really cant. if anyone has any other good options or advice besides kicking him out(i wish i could) or moving out myself (no other family members who are willing. i checked) please help =/